I have neglected here for almost a year. Simply because I found my new love Facebook and Twitter. I was so active there till forgotten you. L2na. Sorrrryyy ;b

Anyway I'm back yo! Ooh~

Lemme updateupdateupdate

So I thought I would be independent after 18/19 and forget about you,but I'm here again.

Since It's been a dead blog year. I'd summarized everything in this post. I have already get used to spam status and I'm gonna apply the same trick here,not bai bai learnt. haha. who cares? I doubt anyone would find this blog of mine

WHAT HAVE I DONE IN 2011?

Well,Let me start from Relationship.

Yes,I was attached. (Unbelievable?) and back to single.

INSECURE LOW SELF-ESTEEM and IMMATURE LOVE

FEAR OF COMMITMENT

I have never thought of my friend would 'confess' to me. I am not sure if that falls under confession category. But he did make the effort to show his feeling towards me. This guy promised to be back when he has got the chance to fly. And he did it,of course. So we met up right after he touchdown in sg. We had a great night at Bliss. Touched* Honestly,I like him,more than he does. Not really sure if he really like me or making fun of me(we used to do this),so I kind of 'rejected' him without even trying. And regretted. How I wish to stalk him,but I could not find his blog,could not find back the earlier feelings. I know It's pointless to express my feelings now,but..

anyway nobody's gonna read this,so.. heehees.. Let's continue..

I remembered his words,almost every word. so I met another guy in the club.

Once Player Forever Player (at least not for me?)

With the concept of 'no harm trying',We got together. ridiculous enough? haha! A player can be nice too? Yes,he is. Not so sure whether he has changed not,but he's definitely a nice guy. And so we broke up and patched for countless time. I'm a paranoid. First month,He really made the effort,but people get tired eventually. So we argued and tried to work things out,but still failed. Perhaps we are not meant to be together. We knew it from the very start tho. Ever heard of this phrase 'People change,Feeling fades'? From my experience,people don't change,then feeling fades.Yes,I do have feelings. Again,I don't know him,his true feeling,but I knew mine.Touchedmyheart* The feeling's not fully fade away yet.. whatsoever,He has a gf now. So.. forget it. moved on. blahblah. last but not least,I have to tell somebody,I ain't Xmm no more. evil smile*

K.Shall end this BGR thingy now.

Perhaps I have no fate for guy. It ain't so bad to be single anyway.NEXT

Polytechnic and Work..

Screwed,of course. I have to admit I really really suck at multitasking. work&school everyday. I had this earn money first then attendance mindset,thats why I got myself Mc(s) every week. 1K a month for a partimer is considered not bad. So where's my money gone to?

Taxi, Mc, Clubbing and Drinking expenses.. oh not to forget.. cosmetic,clothes,makan,school fee,phonebill,yes,everything,I paid. Untill recently.. I have decided to focus on studies. I'm not gonna repeat the same old shit again. Basically cut down on everything I did last semester. and I mean it. I have cut down really a lot a lot,close to QUIT. of course, effort shows improvement. slowly get used to this 'no fun' life already. blahblah..

ME

I briefly mention my poly life here. hees

First year :

met good friends,good attendance,no cab,no mc..

Second year :

socialise,really depend on myself,screwed and lost..

Final year :

Figured out what I want and Open eye BIG BIG.

I have the guts to say,I have finally grew up and become realistic. Forget about 'No harm trying',but not every try is harmful. Dare to take the first step, and you would be surprised how thing goes in its own weird way. Keep on trying,dare to make mistakes. but don't lose yourself. If you don't fall,you would never learn. Just remember to be back after all the FUN. Overall,Life is just a Game,fun and interesting,depend on the way you play it,and your eagerness to win a better YOU. Cheers ;'D

P.S: I am so gonna visit Mount Faber again! I miss the 'Spectacular' view ;b

(Bring me there when I am down)